Started reading Bird By Bird Some Instructions On Writing And Life by Anne Lamott last night. Finding it very entertaining and informative so far. Have to share this passage. She is explaining what happens when you sit down to write.
“You sit down, I say. You try to sit down at approximately
the same time every day. This is how you train your unconscious to kick in for
you creatively. So you sit down at, say, nine every morning, or ten every
night. You put a piece of paper in the typewriter, or you turn on your computer
and bring up the right file, and then you stare at it for an hour or so. You
begin rocking, just a little at first, and then like a huge autistic child. You
look at the ceiling, and over at the clock, yawn, and stare at the paper again.
Then, with your fingers poised on the keyboard, you squint at an image that is
forming in your mind— a scene, a locale, a character , whatever— and you try to
quiet your mind so you can hear what that landscape or character has to say
above the other voices in your mind. The other voices are banshees and drunken
monkeys. They are the voices of anxiety, judgment, doom, guilt. Also, severe
hypochondria. There may be a Nurse Ratched– like listing of things that must be
done right this moment: foods that must come out of the freezer, appointments
that must be canceled or made, hairs that must be tweezed. But you hold an
imaginary gun to your head and make yourself stay at the desk. There is a vague
pain at the base of your neck. It crosses your mind that you have meningitis.
Then the phone rings and you look up at the ceiling with fury, summon every
ounce of noblesse oblige, and answer the call politely, with maybe just the
merest hint of irritation. The caller asks if you’re working, and you say yeah,
because you are. Yet somehow in the face of all this, you clear a space for the
writing voice, hacking away at the others with machetes, and you begin to
compose sentences. You begin to string words together like beads to tell a story. You are desperate to communicate, to edify or
entertain, to preserve moments of grace or joy or transcendence, to make real
or imagined events come alive. But you cannot will this to happen. It is a
matter of persistence and faith and hard work. So you might as well just go
ahead and get started.”
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